it's fun when something doesn't have to be everything because it just makes you notice everything

I know this feeling very well—even now, I have been experiencing it lately: everything seems to be ready for writing—for fulfilling my earthly duty, what's missing is the urge to believe in myself, the belief in the importance of my task, I'm lacking the energy of delusion; an earthly, spontaneous energy that's impossible to invent. And it's impossible to begin without it.